Different personalities is what I have been living -
My life in a shelter…
Sometimes happy - sometimes mad -
I give thanks to the men and women who brought up this idea…
…of providing somewhere to stay for those who don't have a clue of what they must do
like myself.
I have never been so lonely in my whole life - on this earth - away from my families…
…telling my friends lies about where I live
…just because I don't want to feel left out.
I understand that the truth shall set you free,
yet I keep on worrying about if I come clean - I will be lonelier.
I guess then, if they choose to walk out of my life - they weren't a true friend.
Have you ever had that wonderful feeling of knowing that you have someone to talk to?
Someone who trusts you - yet you're holding back this one big secret?
- find it so hard to reveal it.
So why is it wrong to approach a person in the same position as you - you know, like getting to know that someone…because maybe the understanding that you have between that person could help you - get back on your feet again.
But what if I made a mistake?
I just do what I do best - give myself the blame for taking a shot with the wrong aim.
A shelter is like a spring to push you back up when you fall - not to put you out or put you down.
I feel so ashamed knowing that I am a grown man - and yet I am still alone.
All I do is sit on the phone complaining about how I am a single man in this town,
With nowhere to call home.
Living a life on my own - my eyes get so red at night
Dying from stress as if I'm afraid of heights.
My feet shake like the leaves on a tree when the wind blows - while my tears run cold down my cheeks - and it's starting to snow.
I look up to my elders, the ones who are wise - even my teachers I ask for advice
But yet I am so confused in the midst of not knowing exactly what to do…
…still everyday - I search for an answer - a saying that is true.
I will continue to drive my mind to the top of the cliff, but what if I fall?
Who is going to be there to catch me - what if I give up - who is going to be there to push me back up from slipping - who is going to be there?
I now realize that I have to have faith
In myself
In what I do…
…make sure whatever I say is true -
…first to myself and then to you - to everyone, not just a few.
I will never give up praying to the Lord - thanking him for today - hoping to see another.
So one day at a time…
For myself, I am going to make it better -
No matter what the season, the reason, the weather
I will get it together.